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Learning to truly humble myself

This year’s theme for New Creation Church is “A Year of Greater Glory” but Pastor Joseph Prince warns that it is also a year of challenges. 

I think I had my set of challenges already and I thank God for them. Praise His Name for allowing me to grow mentally and spiritually.

Last year, it was the “Key of David”. A door opened to me and it was a managerial role. I believe it was a gift from God. 1 year ago, I was offered a managerial role but feeling uneasy, I turned it down at the very last minute after accepting the job during the interview. I guess I wasn’t ready for it. Some people might think I am stupid to turn down such a good job with high pay and great benefits. But I know God has a better plan for me.

So when I was offered a managerial role this time round, I grabbed the opportunity and I thank Him for giving me the courage and His blessing to do so. I am thankful for the unmerited favored after 3 rounds of interviews.

Of course life is full of ups and downs. But God is good. He gives me enough time to learn the ropes. However the devil always reminds me that I am not perfect and not up to the job. I always thought that I am a humble person and I am willing to learn the ropes from a junior staff. But today I realised that I am not what I thought myself to be.

Today I had a discussion with my superior on my shared job scope with a junior who was previously taking care of the duties and was now passing the duties to me. We had an earlier discussion agreeing to what should be shared between us. I started with a wrong note which gives my superior the idea that I had issues taking over the duties. So he told me that it should not be shared but I have to do everything. He said that previously the junior could do everything by her own and now he has 2 staff, and he questions me why am I having problem coping while the junior has no qualms doing all the workload before.

Immediately feelings of unfairness and being misunderstood overwhelms me. My throat tightens and my mouth dries up. I tried to explain myself but only to make it worse. He already had the impression that I was being petty and was trying to push the responsibilities to the junior staff and he wanted me to be responsible for all things big and small.

Now on my bed, getting ready to retire for the night, I sat quietly reflecting on my behaviour and question myself why do I feel upset at the moment of being confronted? Why do I behave the way I do in front of my superior? I asked God for His wisdom and then I heard something like because you never really humble yourself. 

I had a hard time accepting this but as I wonder why I was feeling upset, I realised that I was thinking that I shouldn’t be taking over duties from a junior staff. I felt that my managerial role should be doing more higher level work, not trivial things like filling up kettles for the pantry area. During the day, I justified that I was being right. But now, I felt what God says is acceptable.
My mindset wasn’t right in the first place. I thought being a manager, I could have the authority to delegate things and “order” people around. But I wasn’t given the authority to do this “yet” which I thought I have been given or I assume.

I was dumbfounded when he told me that he expects me to do all things by myself and the junior is not my assistant. Because in my earlier interview with him, I was told that I am supposed to oversee the office matters including staff. But today I found out from him I am not. Feeling being lied to, my hurt and strong feelings clouded my mind.

Now after retreating in my bedroom, I could reflect upon myself better after I learnt to park my feelings aside. I think I had not really learnt to give up my pride and humble myself. As a manager, you are supposed to have authority and be responsible for all mistakes even those made by your staff. It is only my first step but I have already felt that it is not easy to lead people like a shepherd and to love each and every sheep just the same. Some people might show biasness to certain people. But thank God for His grace and forever patience. He calls us by name and loves each and everyone of us very much, to let His one and only beloved son to die for our sins and He still loves us no more and no less, no matter what we do or do not do.

I think I have learnt a great lesson today although my logical mind is in tuned to the way of the world and it keeps telling me that I am right.

But I want to rely on God’s wisdom and I am asking Him for His grace and wisdom to guide me everyday to do His purpose. In Jesus’ name. Amen.

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Claim your many good days in 2013

Today I had learnt to remind myself that despite of those difficult situations I am facing, I have to keep the faith and believe that God can do miracles in my life. I need to learn to rely on Him always and sing praises of Him at all times – good as well as bad times.

Joseph Prince – Worship With The Psalms Of David And See Good Days – 13 Jan 2013
Published on 17 Jan 2013

Good days are right around the corner when you begin to wield the powerful weapon of worship! In this revelatory sermon by Joseph Prince, learn how you can, like David, go from despair and fear to peace, joy and strength in the Lord as you look to Him and magnify His name. Get acquainted with the beautiful psalms of David and see how God can, in an instant, turn every negative situation around as you worship Him through these anointed songs of praise. Watch the Lord destroy every enemy and be a shield to you as you learn to praise Him at all times!

Let Us Exalt His Name Lyrics (starting at 6:17)

At all times I will bless Him
His praise will be in my mouth
My soul makes its boast in the Lord
The humble man will hear of Him
The afflicted will be glad
And join with me to magnify the Lord

Chorus:
Let us exalt His name together, forever
I sought the Lord, He heard me
And delivered me from my fears.
Let us exalt His name together, forever
0 sing His praises magnify the Lord

The angel of the Lord encamps
Round those who fear His name
To save them and deliver them from harm
Though lions roar with hunger
We lack for no good thing
No wonder then we praise Him with our song

Repeat Chorus

Come children now and hear Him
If you would see long life
Just keep your lips from wickedness and lies
Do good and turn from evil
Seek peace instead of strife
Love righteousness and God will hear your cry

Repeat Chorus


source: http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Psalm+34&version=NKJV

Psalm 34 New King James Version (NKJV)

The Happiness of Those Who Trust in God

A Psalm of David when he pretended madness before Abimelech, who drove him away, and he departed.

34 I will bless the Lord at all times;
His praise shall continually be in my mouth.
My soul shall make its boast in the Lord;
The humble shall hear of it and be glad.
Oh, magnify the Lord with me,
And let us exalt His name together.

I sought the Lord, and He heard me,
And delivered me from all my fears.
They looked to Him and were radiant,
And their faces were not ashamed.
This poor man cried out, and the Lord heard him,
And saved him out of all his troubles.
The angel[a] of the Lord encamps all around those who fear Him,
And delivers them.

Oh, taste and see that the Lord is good;
Blessed is the man who trusts in Him!
Oh, fear the Lord, you His saints!
There is no want to those who fear Him.
10 The young lions lack and suffer hunger;
But those who seek the Lord shall not lack any good thing.

11 Come, you children, listen to me;
I will teach you the fear of the Lord.
12 Who is the man who desires life,
And loves many days, that he may see good?
13 Keep your tongue from evil,
And your lips from speaking deceit.
14 Depart from evil and do good;
Seek peace and pursue it.

15 The eyes of the Lord are on the righteous,
And His ears are open to their cry.
16 The face of the Lord is against those who do evil,
To cut off the remembrance of them from the earth.

17 The righteous cry out, and the Lord hears,
And delivers them out of all their troubles.
18 The Lord is near to those who have a broken heart,
And saves such as have a contrite spirit.

19 Many are the afflictions of the righteous,
But the Lord delivers him out of them all.
20 He guards all his bones;
Not one of them is broken.
21 Evil shall slay the wicked,
And those who hate the righteous shall be condemned.
22 The Lord redeems the soul of His servants,
And none of those who trust in Him shall be condemned.

Footnotes:

  1. Psalm 34:7 Or Angel

First Sunday of 2013

Yesterday was the first Sunday of 2013 and I am glad that I was able to attend New Creation Church (NCC)’s 2.30pm, 3rd service at The Star Performing Arts Centre. I was in awe by the size of the congregation that filled up the entire auditorium. Praise The Lord! The performance by the Music and Dance Ministry were awesome too.

Today’s message was given by Pastor Joseph Prince and he said that usually he will receive a yearly theme for the church or an emphasis for the entire year from God. And behold, this year’s theme is “The Key of David”!

The chosen verse,

Isaiah 22:22 says “I will place on his shoulder the key to the house of David, what he opens no one can shut, and what he shuts no one can open.”

was explained and expounded by Pastor Prince to be the year where Jesus will open or close different doors of opportunities with adversaries/womb=fertility/achor=hope for you.

Pastor Prince explained that God does not force His blessings unto you. He will gently knocked on your door from the outside. Only you who is willing, can open the door from the inside to invite Jesus into your life. If you want Jesus to enter into your life with His blessings, all you need to do is to 1. pray and 2. praise Him. Praise Him with songs and worship Him with hymns; words of David. Even in times of trouble.

In 2012, I have been praying for opened and closed doors from God to help me choose the right career path and I have been asking Christians around me how did God answer their prayers. Most of them answered that you will have peace in your heart once you made the decision. But I thought there should be a more obvious sign from God. Actually in my heart, I kinda know that God has been closing all the doors for one of the career choice that I have made, and I stubbornly kicked the ‘closed door’ open. I faced a lot of obstacles and I internalized that God is giving me the obstacles to train me into a better and stronger person. Maybe I was in denial because another door of opportunity opened and it was a much happier career. Retrospectively, I realized God has indeed been closing and opening doors for me.

Today, Pastor Prince gave an explanation on how God answers your prayers in making the right decision; a choice between A and B. He said that God does not say “take B” to you when you asks Him for an answer. The answer does not come immediately. Rather the right choice will slowly grow on you that eventually you will choose it with a strong desire. The wrong choice will seem to shrink in your heart that it no longer becomes a choice over the other. When Pastor Prince described this to us, I felt that the question in my heart had been answered confidently today. Praise God!

Signing up as a Volunteer in Rock Kidz Ministry

Today is the day I felt God’s calling and sign up as a volunteer for Rock Kidz Ministry when Pastor Lee Lian Neo takes the stage and asks for volunteers. God has indeed blessed New Creation Church with an exponential growth in the number of churchgoers month after month. Praise His Name!

First Visit to New Creation Church

8 January 2012 was my first time visiting New Creation Church at the overflow area (GV Marina Square) with my ex-colleague.

This was the moment, God touches my heart through Pastor Joseph Prince’s message and I find myself looking forward to every Sunday to hear his message of Grace. I never find myself wanting to go to church so much before. Haha…

ps: Now it’s 21 May 2013. It is amazing that I still feel the same after more than a year. All glory to God and praise His name!

My journey with Christ

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